Teasing

Running away I am. It seems darker than I thought. However, What I could expect? The sun was not above me in this moment. My head cannot understand myself and I am realizing the way I chosen is getting me so tired. I have closer the pain. I am the pain sometimes. Jeopardizing myself when I remember what happened, I tried make up the reality, but in the reality are not allowed fools. Are not allowed cheating. Keeping me alone to give me a break, only I shall see whatever my mind want. These days I was living in the grayness. Even though I must follow the way which let me to the gaiety. The problem is not in the concept. The problem is that the way to wonderland have not been discovered so far.